Wow, it's been a while between songs, and to be honest, this isn't the best one to return on. It's really crap quality production, and a VERY under-developed one at that. Awesome way to build it up Andy :) I'm posting this though, as I distinctly remember when and why I wrote it, so enjoy it for the story, if not for the song itself :) The song is a drum click track, 2 guitars (recorded on my old Ibanez, to get that whammy effect in the riff) and 2 vocal tracks most of the time (with some distortion).

I wrote this song after a pair of good friends of mine broke up their long-term relationship. It was a sunny day, I'd met one of them for lunch, they broken the news to me - I think it had only happened 1 or 2 days beforehand, I was a bit shocked actually. I was doing a contract at AAPT at the time, and the guy I was working for was away on leave - I had his office. I returned to work, and whipped out the lyrics pretty much as they appear below, working from three different perspectives/voices; how he felt, how she felt, how I think I'd feel (NOTE: I was not involved in the break-up whatsoever!). Some of the lines relate to him, some to her, some to how I thought I would cope with the situation. I went home and recorded the song that night.

Here's the lyrics;

And the demons rape my mind again
I'm paranoid of all my friends
And I hope your God can save me from this sin
I'm verging on insanity
A break from life is what I need
So I'll leave this place and everything I see
Love is great and love is grand
But the aftermath I cannot stand
So I'll drink all day and see another band

Do you ever wonder why you're lonely?
Do you ever wonder why I care?
It's because you are thinking of me
I'm the man inside your head

Insomnia drops in and out
I lay in bed filled up with doubt
While she's out fucking friends I'll live without
I'm breaking up, I'm falling down
Devoid of life, without a sound
My mind goes (? not sure what this word is?), my heart begins to pound

I wonder what you'll write about me
I remember all the things they've said
You know you cannot live without me
I'm the man inside your head

And it wouldn't be a proper Andy Neumann song if there wasn't at least one major fuck up in the guitar solo (pretty badly missed note - d'oh!). That was 11 years ago, and the couple in question was Steph and her ex-boyfriend (who was also a good friend of mine). Don't think I've ever told Steph that I wrote a song about that...

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